31st Birthday
My 31st birthday was October 3, 2005. It's been about two weeks since that fateful day. Family and friends know that birthdays have been hard for me especially as of late. Last year was the big one. The one I'd been dreading for five years. The big 3-oh no!
I was the quintessential drama queen preparing for that day. Crying and obsessing over everything in my life that wasn't the way I would've scripted it if I had the option. I ended up spending the day with a co-worker at Usher's sold-out Confessions concert at the Phillips arena. I know many of you are wondering why the Usher concert right? Well I am a libra by nature and I am always seeking balance and looking for reasoning in the things that happen to me. To make a long story short, which is something I usually am not able to do, I ended up working in entertainment PR after relocating to Atlanta, GA...so the Usher concert kind of went along with my new career. So after buying an outfit, and noticing the size I normally purchased was no longer the size that would fit...I ended up sitting in a prime location watching our new age Michael Jackson pop-lock and dance allover a stage complete with fantabulous pyrotechnics and scantily clad perfectly shaped girls. The concert presented me with an epiphany because I looked around and saw all the many folks there much older than myself singing along, chanting "Yeah!" and having a great time....suddenly it occured to me that just because I was 30 my life was not going to suddenly stop and as my wise beyond her years nine year old told me later that night, "Mom you're only as old as you feel."
So that was last year. After that birthday I went on thriving in my new career, finally doing what I really love to do. I started my own t-shirt line (Caramelized) which is a passion I've had for quite some time. And I finished editing my novel which will finally, finally, finally hit stores January 2006. But in the midst of all that good, my husband lost his job and inevitably the company I worked for did some downsizing and I ended up having to go my own way. So here I am right before 31 without a job, and in a horrible financial situation due to my husband losing his very steady and secure job.
I was depressed the entire month of September, feeling guilty for following my dreams of being a publicist instead of taking a more responsible job. Feeling guilty for spending money on starting my t-shirt business which I was unable to get off the ground due to funds and feeling like I'd wasted more time than I had a right too on things that ended up being bad ideas.
I started my own company Enchanted PR, which is so much a part of me, I feel like I've always done this and I began working on the marketing for my book, but still it paled in comparison to the goals I set for myself at this age.
Unlike last year I haven't found the epiphany for this birthday or this place I'm in at the time. I know in January actually seeing my book in print will be a dream come true, but I have yet to discover the intellectual gem that will make all this make sense.
So this is my first post and I've introduced you to the turmoil in my life. Next time I'll have to show you the other side.
Smooches,
Christal
I was the quintessential drama queen preparing for that day. Crying and obsessing over everything in my life that wasn't the way I would've scripted it if I had the option. I ended up spending the day with a co-worker at Usher's sold-out Confessions concert at the Phillips arena. I know many of you are wondering why the Usher concert right? Well I am a libra by nature and I am always seeking balance and looking for reasoning in the things that happen to me. To make a long story short, which is something I usually am not able to do, I ended up working in entertainment PR after relocating to Atlanta, GA...so the Usher concert kind of went along with my new career. So after buying an outfit, and noticing the size I normally purchased was no longer the size that would fit...I ended up sitting in a prime location watching our new age Michael Jackson pop-lock and dance allover a stage complete with fantabulous pyrotechnics and scantily clad perfectly shaped girls. The concert presented me with an epiphany because I looked around and saw all the many folks there much older than myself singing along, chanting "Yeah!" and having a great time....suddenly it occured to me that just because I was 30 my life was not going to suddenly stop and as my wise beyond her years nine year old told me later that night, "Mom you're only as old as you feel."
So that was last year. After that birthday I went on thriving in my new career, finally doing what I really love to do. I started my own t-shirt line (Caramelized) which is a passion I've had for quite some time. And I finished editing my novel which will finally, finally, finally hit stores January 2006. But in the midst of all that good, my husband lost his job and inevitably the company I worked for did some downsizing and I ended up having to go my own way. So here I am right before 31 without a job, and in a horrible financial situation due to my husband losing his very steady and secure job.
I was depressed the entire month of September, feeling guilty for following my dreams of being a publicist instead of taking a more responsible job. Feeling guilty for spending money on starting my t-shirt business which I was unable to get off the ground due to funds and feeling like I'd wasted more time than I had a right too on things that ended up being bad ideas.
I started my own company Enchanted PR, which is so much a part of me, I feel like I've always done this and I began working on the marketing for my book, but still it paled in comparison to the goals I set for myself at this age.
Unlike last year I haven't found the epiphany for this birthday or this place I'm in at the time. I know in January actually seeing my book in print will be a dream come true, but I have yet to discover the intellectual gem that will make all this make sense.
So this is my first post and I've introduced you to the turmoil in my life. Next time I'll have to show you the other side.
Smooches,
Christal
posted by Christal Jordan-Mims | 12:27 PM
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